a funeral is a very dark place. the clothes we wear represents our mourning. the most frustrating thing about losing someone is their potential. we can never truly understand someone, even after they're gone and they left clues to part of their lives. we can't wear their shoes and back track and see "oh so this is where things went wrong". those shoes might just be too small or too big for us. looking forward, we'll always ask those "what ifs". looking backward, we'll always ask those "what ifs".